The Divine Within - Carol Dombrose

The following message was delivered to the Church of the Angels by our friend Carol Dombrose,  Oct. 2009

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I am here today to speak to you about the Divinity that lives inside of you.   I came to speak to you of how deeply you are loved.

At this time in our history, we are being called to recognize a higher self that lives within us.  Barbara Marx Hubbard calls it the Universal Self.  Others call it the Divine light and love that lives in our heart.
 
Neale Donald Walsch was once asked during a Q & A session after one of his talks if he could sum up what God wanted us to know about Him in just one paragraph.  He said he could do it in 5 words.  “You’ve got Me all wrong”. 
 
We have been taught to believe that the God we seek lives outside of us, in a heaven that we can only hope to reach after we die.  But we are not separate from God.  The God Source of life and love lives inside of us.

When we know our own heart, we remember who we are, we remember the light that we are. We need only to look inside our own heart to know love at a deeper level - to find God.
I felt that connection to life when I was 5 years old and the oak tree in my front yard was my friend.  I talked to the tree and took care of its leaves in the Fall when they fell to the ground.  The whole world was mine.  I could live in peace, give love to my doll, build castles in the sand, have a tree for my friend.  The whole world was a place to love. 

But then as I grew and was trying to live the life I was taught to live, I can see now that my spiritual self – my connection to love that I wasn’t even aware of was keeping me on the path I was meant to live. 
 
A defining moment in my life was the death of my husband in 2001.  He was such a loving man I thought that my time with him had taught me all there was to know about love.  Yet after his death, I kept hearing this call to go deeper into love.  I was not really sure what that meant, but I felt pulled into a deeper connection to the Source of love.
 
Within months of Larry’s death I was led to an old farmhouse and 3 acres of land in Strongsville where I started what is now called Angel House:  Life Enrichment Center.  As a Psychologist, just talking to people about their problems didn’t seem to be enough.  We needed to go deeper into who they were, into their creative self, their spiritual self.  This is what I wanted to provide at Angel House, a safe place for people to explore the deeper self. 

I did that by providing in addition to counseling, classes in the creative and healing arts.  I didn’t think of Angel House as also being my place to explore.  But this is where my journey into the dimension of deeper love began.  And to my surprise, I have found that the journey led me right back into my own heart. 
 
When I was a child, we had a picture of the Sacred Heart of Jesus hanging in our living room.  When you came in the front door and looked straight ahead, there He was.  I loved that picture and it always brought me great comfort. 
 
When my parents both died and we were preparing to sell the house, the only thing I wanted from the house was that picture.  It now hangs in my bedroom.

When I was in high school, a teacher told me that when Jesus died on the cross, his heart was pierced by the soldier after He had died so his heart never healed and would always be open to us. 
 
So, sitting in church one day, I was thinking about that image and decided that I would crawl into the opening in His heart and then I would always be safe. 
 
As I grew Spiritually, I encountered difficulty in dealing with the church in my life and ended up leaving the church for what I thought would be a short time until I could work out my difficulties.  However, I have never gone back.

During that time, Jesus got shut out of my life along with the church.  Although I had left Him, He never left me.  He came to me in a dream when I was going through a very difficult divorce.  The divorce took five years to get resolved and my life changed considerably during that time. 

In the dream, He was leaning against a rock and He said to me, “You don’t have to stay here with these people, you can move on.”  The dream was very comforting. 

That was my last encounter with Jesus until many years later when I was learning how to do the healing energy work of Reiki.

Before we started our training, the instructor had us do an imagery.  She led us to a temple and asked us to open the door to find our Reiki Guide.  When I opened the door, there stood Jesus.  I was upset and tried to make Him go away saying that I wanted my Reiki Guide.  I finally had to concede that He WAS my Reiki Guide and go with it. 

The Instructor then said that our Reiki Guide handed us a gift.  Jesus gave me a box and said, “In here is all you will ever need.”  I thought that it probably contained many things and when I needed something, I could open the box and find it there.
 
Then in my imagery, I opened the box and the only thing in the box was a Heart!!
Now I knew that He was back in my life and I would need to learn more about Him.  A book that was suggested in the reading list from the Reiki training was “Jesus Lived in India”.  I bought this book and began to read about this part of His life.  Now He was becoming a person to me, someone I could identify with and this felt very comfortable.  I was glad to have Him out of the church and back into my life.  He had been a good friend to me. 
 
When I was getting attuned with the Reiki energy into my hands, He again spoke to me and said; “Now your hands are my hands and my hands are your hands.”  Now I was deeply connected to Him.

In May of 2009 while I was doing my morning meditation before arising, I was talking to Jesus and in my imagery, I saw his heart, with its open wound, come towards me and merge with my heart. 

Now the safety I wanted by hiding in His heart as a teenager, was in my own heart.  Our fusion was getting stronger.
Two days later I had this experience that I recorded in my journal:  “I like to go in my imagery to a quiet place next to a waterfall where I could meet with Jesus and feel safe.  For sometime now, I have been unable to connect to Jesus and thought it was because I was distracted and not focused.  Also, for the last couple of weeks, I have no longer felt Larry’s presence."

So this morning, facing that same difficulty, I became aware that the reason I could no longer find Him ‘out there’ was because He was not ‘out there‘, but was ‘in here’ ~~ He is part of me.  This is also true of Larry’s energy.

I realized that I had assimilated them, their energy, into myself and we are not separate.  They continue to live now through me.
 
None of these ideas are really new to me, I have said these words before, but I have never felt it like I do now. 

So Jesus also is not someone “out there” but someone who lives inside of us.  Inside our heart with the Love Source that is part of us. 

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Jesus ascension and the term Ascended Masters now has a different meaning to me.  Ascension is another word for evolution.  Evolution is a process of Ascension.  Ascension is something we can all achieve while we are alive.  We do not have to wait until we die to find heaven.  It is the emergence of more complex forms of existance.  Our ascension begins right now, into the divine realm that is right inside of us.  And we can live in and from that space.

In our evolution we are moving toward the Christ consciousness.

We were taught that Christ came and lived His life to show us the way – the way to Ascension – Yes, our own Ascension to connect to the Divine that is right inside our heart.
Christ taught us all what we needed to know but through the years it was twisted and turned to fit what was the thought of the day and the way of human life that was limited.

We are now getting back in touch with Christ’s original message.  Heaven - What we are looking for is right inside of us.  And we can reach that place by opening to and accepting the divinity that lives in our heart.  
 
I would like to share with you a short meditation because the experience of personally connecting to the Divine within is stronger than any words I can say. 
 
Close your eyes if you are okay with that.  
 
Take a deep and steady breath in, exhale slowly, 
 
Take another deep and steady breath in, breath in pure white light through your nose and let that light reach and touch every corner of your being. 
 
Exhale that pure white light forming a circle around you with it.

Breath in deeply again and let pure white light touch the very center of your heart where you and God meet and touch and create together.

Exhale and let the assuredness of your breath circle you...

Breath in pure white light and as you exhale let the light go as high as wide and as deep as you can imagine it can.

In your minds eye while enfolded in your circle of your pure white light take yourself to the center of your heart.

Notice a small chamber in your heart center that contains within it a powerful spark of light.  That is God’s outpost in you.
 
Take another deep breath into your heart and connect to that powerful spark of light.
Exhale and feel yourself expanded. 

Take another deep breath and connect deeper, deeper, deeper still until you are no longer separated from that powerful spark of light.

Exhale a long steady breath, allow it to circle around you.

Rest comfortably now, you are about to receive a message that is spoken to you from the source of your creation:

“I am here with you, my child, I am here.  I am here to help you fully awaken, I am here to watch over you and to love you as you fully awaken to your power and use your divine heritage to lead by example.
 
I am in awe of the masterpiece I created.  I am in awe of your beauty, and your courage and your commitment.  And I am honored to have a part of me living inside of you.  Here in the center of your heart is where I have kept company with the most powerful part of yourself awaiting your arrival. 
 
Will you cease looking for external understanding to validate your eternal worth?  Your worth has always resided in here in the center of your heart with me.  I want you to know that your very presence when fully awakened allows every other being of my creation a greater opportunity to experience there own greatness.
 
You have been created to make a difference in my world and I love you.  Will you believe me when I tell you how grateful I am that I created you exactly as you are?  And will you come to peace knowing that truth.  Do you know how much I love you.  Never push me away and I promise to daily show you the many ways in which I love you.  May the light of all that is good and great and powerful and wise accompany you on your MAGNIFICENT  journey.  I travel inside of your every footstep.”     
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In closing, let me leave you with this thought:

Inside your heart is where you find the Divine within.  Go there when you feel afraid or uncertain, you will find comfort, go there when you feel good and celebrate together with the Divine within you.  Know that you can never be separated from this Divine light.  It is part of you, it is who you are, you are never alone.  We are not separate from Source.  

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